I love him don’t get wrong.
But his past scares me. I can forgive and forget but sometimes I remember. And I am terrified. Everything points to a repeating cycle. Drugs, more drugs, worse drugs. Getting caught, getting in some serious trouble. Taking a break, making promises. Then a slip. Drugs, more drugs, worse drugs. I’m so afraid. I still uncover a lie he told me in the beginning now and then. He’s been so good for 9 months now. So I forgive and forget.
But I can’t help being scared when I remember.