Posted by Anonymous on 2012/04/30 under Uncategorized just dont even read this…….
i miss you so much. i remember when we were kids and we used to play together in the neighborhood: we used to play pool in the basement, we used to pretend we were indians and run around my yard, we played skateboarding video games and listened to green day, we used to play on our matching game boys and ds chat each other until midnight. i remember when you slept over at my house and we made a plan to spy on our sisters, but we both fell asleep. i remember the day you moved away. you were only moving ten minutes down the road, but it wasn’t the same as you living three houses down. i remember the first night i got a cell phone, i hadnt talked to you in awhile, we were drifting apart, but i got your number and we both stayed home from school the next day because we were up all night texting. i remember when i was in fifth grade and i came home crying every day because you wouldnt talk to me at school, but then when you came over after school, my heart forgot that you had hurt me. I remember in seventh grade, when you liked one of my friends, and i distracted you by saying you would never guess who i liked; you guessed all the boys’ names in our grade, but never yours. i remember in eighth grade when we went to the park in the winter an you pushed me on the swings. i remember last summer, after eighth grade, when i went to michigan for three days to see you. the first night we were there, your aunt was drinking and smoking so you took her beer and carton of cigarettes and ran down the beach and threw them in the water. she was mad, but she was too drunk to realize you loved her. i remember when we stayed up late and i gave everyone henna tattoos. i remember when you wouldnt get up until i went in and got you up. i remember when everyone went out to dinner, and you ignored your friend so we could play the games on the kids menu. i remember how when we were leaving, you sat in my room while i packed and told me you wished i could stay longer. then when you hugged me before i left, i wished you would never have let go. i miss you alot now. freshman year is almost over, and we havent talked in almost a year. i saw you at church once, you have changed so much. now you are just like the other kids at your school. you think you are better than everyone. and you are mean. i havent mentioned all the times you have insulted me or hurt me, but that’s because love keeps no records. i dont want to taint my memory of you. i miss you when i watch avatar the last airbender because you are just like aang; you have so much riding on your shoulders because of your parents never being proud of you and you look alike. i wish for everything in your life to be perfect, but it’s not. late at night, i think about you and just pray that tomorrow will be great for you. i have no hope now that we will ever be together, but i love you so much that i dont care. i have been in love with you since the third grade. we used to be close, but now when my family goes to your house for dinner, i pretend to be sick or tired,or to have too much homework. sometimes, i wish i could go back to when we were little and freeze a moment in time when we were smiling together and never move from that moment.
i have to let you go now. it will be hard, but i think i can because i have told you how much i love you. its not healthy for me to love someone who is incapable of loving me back. goodbye.
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this is the first intelligent post I have seen here.