Posted by Anonymous on 2013/11/14 under Uncategorized i havent written anything in a long time. i have just been keeping all my feelings bottled up and today it all exploded. im tired. of life, of pain, of trying so hard, of everything. I am done. f*** life. f*** it. there is no point. whats the f***ing point. i am so f***ing nice to everyone and i give and i give and i give and i receive nothing in reutrn. f*** you god, f*** you. why did you have to make me so nice? why cant i just be an insensitive jerk and a****** like the rest of them? that way atleast i wouldnt have been hurt sooo much by this one f***ing c***. why? f***, i dont want to be so nice to everyone, but if i stop being nice, then im not being myself anymore.i dont f***ing know. f*** life. f*** it, there is not even a point trying anymore. im not going to try anymore. f*** it. f*** you. i hate life. i hate everything. i dont want to be myself, i dont want to be so f***ing ugly, i dont want to be so f***ing nice and caring. why cant i be normal why the f*** am i so weird why the f*** do i repulse everyone that talks to me. f*** you, you really think that not talking to me and completely ignoring me is helping me move on? you stupid b****. you reallly think that after everything you know about me and after all the things that you know i hate? you really think tats going to help? no f*** no, thats just going to make me hate you, love you, hate you, love you, hate you, its just going to go in f***ing circles. its not going to f***ing help b****, im so pissed. f*** you. i know what you are doing you selfish piece of c***. i know exactly what game you are playing with me, and im just tired. im so tired of being worried all the time and F*** it, just f*** it,im done wiht life, there is not even a point anymore. we all die in the end so whats the f***ing point? i dont belong to this world. im in so much pain right now i cant even bear it. my heart f***ing hurts like a b****. im so done, ugh f*** you.do you realize wht you are doing? u r eating me up alive from the inside. f*** you. f***. why did i ever see you. f*** my life. im just so f***ing tired of everything right now, i dont know what to do anymore. f*** everything. i hate myself now. all the qualities that i have are not good qualties to have in this world and in this generation. being nice just means people use and hurt you as much as you want. being smart means you make a lot of fake friends. being caring just means that a lot of people are going to take advantage of you. f*** you sweetheart. you really think that you are helping me? i heard that you are happy now, good for you, a freind of yours messaged me just to tell me that you are very happy and that you are receiving a lot of proposals from guys right now. good for you, im happy for you. atleast one of us is having an awesome time! i have become someone who i promised to never become. i promised myself to never stop belieinvg and to never stop having hope, but i have given up hope now. life doesnt get any better. im on the edge right now. f***. i dont know, just so f***ing tired. tired of everything.,i am broken, i am broken in a way that i dont think can ever be fixed. f*** it, who cares about me anyways? it seems like i care so much about a lot of people and no one f***ing gives a s*** about me. f***. im a f***ed up person, so f***ing weird. if anyone ever could read my mind, i would go straight to a mental hospital. i really thought i could trust you and thats what makes things so hard, i really trusted you, when you said you will never leave my side and that you will me forever, i thought you actually meant forever because thats just how naive i am, i really thought you meant forever, because i surely meant it. i didnt expect you to leave me when i needed you the most. its been a long time since we last talked but it feels like forever. i will continue this later since now im just crying and cant write anything.
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i feel the same. sometimes i wish i could just die.