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Posted by on 2013/04/28 under Uncategorized

Hi, I’m Matt. I’m going to tell you about how this past month has f***ed up my life. I have one true love named Aubree. She means the world to me, and she’s my everything. We’ve had a lot of fights over serious and stupid stuff. I cheated on her before and she found out. She accepted it and we moved past it because it was a mistake. I was drunk and had no idea what I was doing, but that is no excuse. She talked to this guy, Paul. He likes her. I seriously would do anything for this girl. She’s my world, and we had so many cute inside jokes and funny memories. I would always tell her she is my princess and she would tell me I’m her prince. Every little thing meant so much to me in our relationship. I relied on them to make me happy. One week before our 6 month anniversary, she told me she didn’t want to be with me anymore. That week I realized how f***ed up everything was. I slipped into a depression, and honestly had thoughts about killing myself. Nothing means anything to me anymore. I used to be really athletic, but now I have no motivation because I know I won’t go anywhere with sports. I showed up to school drunk because every time I saw Aubree, I wanted to break down and cry. Every time I feel a slight feeling of happiness, it goes away. Like a rain storm goes away and it becomes a sunny day, except this is the opposite. My rain storm hasn’t stopped. So many people have tried to make me feel better, but they haven’t. Aubree told me she wanted to be with me, but she didn’t know if it would work. She told me she wasn’t in love with me anymore. I just don’t know what to do anymore. My life is a wreck, I drink my pain away and every night I fall asleep hoping I don’t wake up tomorrow so I don’t have to feel this anymore. Help me; just release me from this pain…

2 thoughts on “Just stop this..

  1. Anonymous says:

    I think the best thing to do is focus on you, on whatever you enjoy doing, your goals, and the things that are important to you that you didn’t pay as much attention to while you were with her. An example would be exercising because you probably didn’t do as much of it while you were with her, but if you do, it will give you something to do and maybe you can set a certain goal for yourself, and you’ll just feel good about yourself. Im so sorry, i know how u feels. i hope i helped you. Every girl is lucky to have u, good luck.

  2. random internetz guy says:

    I know the feeling, I’m in a situation almost Identical to yours.. and to add a bit to it, she was my 1st girfriend. And I thought I finally found that one special girl(I’m 21 and she was 19)

    we were together for 39 days, sounds short, was short and felt like it would last forever. We were a lot together In that short amount of time, watching movies, playing games, going out, cuddling, kissing and telling each other everything.. It felt as if I was dreaming and I told her that.

    idk anymore.. I can tell you the whole story (none of us cheated and we never had any fights etc.) but that won’t help, this won’t either though.. just saying, I know what you’re going through and it sucks, since that day I’m drinking, skipping school, smoking again I even cut myself and I know I’m just f***ing up my whole life.. just sayin, but when you are really depressed it’s like nobody understands and you can even get mad at people when they are just trying to help, you know they can’t help with this and they still try too cheer you up and it makes the depression worse but I guess that’s just me, I’ve been running around depressed with fake smiles for 2 weeks now.. and everyday I am thinking of ending it,

    last thing she said to me: “you’ll get over it, bye”

    just a random guy on the internnet who knows what you’re going through and searching for a solution too..

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