Posted by Anonymous on 2013/03/30 under Uncategorized I know that you wouldn’t notice this message, like people dont notice me at all. but I just want to get my feelings out somewhere. I think this world is bulls***, people say things they dont mean, or something they dont feel. well i dont have anyone, im alone in this world. My parents dont notice me, they see me as air, everyone does. About a year ago, i wanted to chat with my crush, as i walked in his direction, i said hi, and stopped, he didn’t stop. He ignored me, and it still hurts thinking of it. I remember running home, straight to my room, and cry. And it wasn’t the first time he ignored me, hi have done it 5 times, and yes, i counted the times. People dont see me as a “person” they see me as air, waste of life. I actually believe what people see me as. I really dont feel anything, i feel empty sometimes, Like im in a game or something, i cant describe it. Anyways, next day i walked straight at him, and said why he ignored me, he wouldn’t answer, as i said it again. He looked at me, in like 10 seconds, and he walked away, again. I couldn’t believe it. And i have to mention, im a chubby girl, but im good looking. I have confidence and everything. But it just hurts people ignoring me, so i decided not to talk to anyone. Well girls they are the worst. They are all bithces. And i mean it, they dont talk to me because of my weight. I never get invited to parties. I remember once when i was 13 i got invited to a beach party, i couldn’t for the day, because it was the first time, somebody ever invited me to somewhere. I was the happiest girl on earth. Because people actually noticed me, and then they day was coming up, when i heard about my dad got a heart attack, i couldn’t believe it, my speciel, day. then i decided to not to go, my dad needs me. And the next day, people was pointing at me, and called me big Sack of Potatoes,Buddha, 500 pounds, largeass In general just FAT
Well i didn’t know why they were saying all these mean things, then a girl said, because i wasn’t there and they thought because i wouldn’t show my body. And it hurt like HELL. and i mean it. Everyone hated me because i was fat. And all i wished for was to get noticed. Well my wish came true. But know, nobody notice me at all. Maybe because of my weight, but literally they dont talk to me, im just a little fat girl, who goes in school. I dont know what to do seriously..
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You do matter. People do notice yourself. You just don’t see it my dear. I want you to become the best you. Change and be strong! If you’d like to lose weight, eat healthy and work out and prove to all these people that you can do whatever you set your mind to! Most of all, I want you to love yourself and try to stand out! Put your shoulders back, wear an invisible crown! I truly believe that you have lots of potential in life and I know you can be strong through these times. Good Luck .xx