Posted by Anonymous on 2013/01/13 under Uncategorized Im dating someone, ive been dating him since last febuary. I love this guy, I really do, I just found out what he looks like though. I met him online, I know really stupid thing to do, but he didn’t know what I looked like either, he thought I was a guy and looked completely different then what I actually do, but he didn’t care what I looked like, we just talked about random stuff. We ended up falling in love and did the whole thing where you change your status to where your in a relation ship with the other person. I wasn’t sure if he was joking or was telling the truth each time he said he loved me, but I was telling the truth each time I said I loved him, still am. A friend of mine ended up bugging him about sending me a picture of what he looked like, I wanted to hit them for that, I thought the guy would be mad about it. instead he was saying that he had been meaning to for a while, but was too shy, he said he didn’t care what I looked like and that It was okay if I didn’t send him a picture of myself. My friend ended up taking my picture when I wasn’t watching and sent it to him a bit before he sent me his. when I got the picture he asked me not to laugh at what he looks like, but I did laugh. I feel bad about it now, now I think hes really good looking. it was kinda funny though, we both thought the other was going to think we were ugly so we were both really nervous, we’re still dating and stuff; but he doesn’t know about me. as I said before, he thinks im a guy, I even got my friend to call me a guy, ive wanted to tell him a girl for a really long time, since we started dating…because hes gay, but, if I do hell get really mad, and hate me. Before I met him, I was a lesbian, hes the first guy I have ever liked in the history of my short life, ive never felt more in love then I do with him. hes dyslexic and has anger problems, hes not the perfect guy what so ever, but god, I love him so damn much. the other day we were talking about what we would do if we ever met, the only thing that came to my mind is how mad he would be and how much he would hate me, I was trying to not let how hurt I was show through my words and I guess it worked because we both kept laughing about how shy and embarrassed we would be about it. I want to tell him im a girl, but I don’t want to lose him, but knowing im lieing to him day after day and month after month, ive never felt this bad. My friend asked him why hes gay, he said it was because he didn’t find girls interesting, I wasn’t sure what to think about that, it just made me want to hide who I was even more…but I hate that the person he fell in love with is just a made up person. the same person as in the picture and whose feelings are shared, but im no guy, as much as I wish I was, im not.