Posted by Anonymous on 2012/12/09 under Uncategorized I am alone in the world. I have no friends. I am no good at making friends, so I gave up trying a long time ago. It was a result of crippling shyness from an early age and a destroyed confidence that made me an outsider. Don’t get me wrong, I want friends but people steer clear of me. I never mixed well but somehow got married and fathered two children then she left me. We married not out of love but as an adventure as I wanted to live in Australia and she offered that opportunity. I’m now trapped 12,000 away from my family back in the UK. I have shared custody of my two kids. We were divorced 8 years ago. I found real happiness 3 years ago when I met a beautiful woman who was in a bad spot in her life. I was in a position to help her so I did and we became lovers and the best of friends. She was the world to me and promised me a future. I was so happy I cried one day while I was by myself. I had struggled to build security for my children and had managed a mortgage for 4 years and had tripled my income since my divorce. My lover showed me a house that was for sale. It was a beautiful family home with in-ground pool extra bedrooms and it was a big step up from the tidy townhouse I had. I wouldn’t risk the home I had secured for my kids and me so I said no way as I was only a one income family and if anything went wrong I would have no safety net. She assured me that if it ever came to that she would move in with her two young children so the bills would be covered. This went on for some weeks and eventually i was satisfied that this was a good opportunity and our relationship and all the children hers and mine all got on excellently. As soon as I moved into my new home my job that I had had for 8 years was in jeopardy as the company had been bought out and the new owners made some major errors. As soon as that happened she no longer wanted the relationship and left me. I was soon made redundant and cant find another job. My mortgage is huge and the value of the property has fallen to well below what I owe on it. some friend she turned out to be. Strange as it is i miss her terribly and long for her to want me in her life. She was everything I ever wanted in a partner and my heart was ripped out when she turned her back on me. She acted as if our relationship had meant nothing, contradicting all she had said and implied. I had panic attacks for months afterwards, the sense of loss and abandonment was the deepest imaginable. I went from being the happiest man alive to the most distraught and lonely. I am a very giving person, generous and loving, always wanting to please and be accepted, I want to be loved but anyone I have ever known has taken my generosity and then crapped on me from a great height. To the woman I thought the world of I want to say, Io I love You – I hope one day you understand that I was for real.