Posted by Anonymous on 2012/04/17 under Uncategorized i wish i was a happy, secure, popular person. right now i feel so depressed and ready to cry. i am so jealous of confident, funny people who have loads of friends and a really carefree attitude. i care too much about little things. i think too much and do too little. my life is wasting away. i am so paranoid of everyone hating me, scared to speak my thoughts because of the reaction people could give me. i met a guy and i’m obsessed with him because he has so many of the qualities i am jealous of: he’s very confident, very popular, funny etc. we got involved and i cared but he really doesn’t. i’m a secret. the only way i can see this working is being a secret but i hate it. i don’t know what to do. what do i do? i’m going crazy and i have exams coming up and i can’t concentrate. i want to talk to him all the time but he only talks to me when he wants to hook up. i don’t want him to think i’m like desperately in love with him or something (i’m not, just think he’s like a role model to me) because that scared him away last time, and if he stops talking to me i’ll never get over it. i think about him all the time, and i thought about him all the time for soo long. this happened before a bit with another guy but i don’t think it was ever this serious. but i want it to stop. but i’m scared if it does my life will be so pointless. i don’t get how people can be happy. i want to be happy.
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Let me tell you this. Being popular ain’t so great. I’m not popular and thank god for that. in 6th grade I use to have barley any friends. In 7th grade I made tons of New friends. Try making new friends. it will make yourself feel better. If they sit next to u in a class than everyday say hi or have small chat. Soon it will turn into regular chat and talk. Than boom you have a new friend. New friends can led into more new friends easier which can rank up your social points. Now for the boy. He’s your role model right? Well that’s good that you have someone you look up to. If he really thinks that you have a crush on him next time just say “sorry but I don’t like you like that….” it may be weird and he prob say what but trust me it works. i had to say it once to boy who I barley spoke too. Your life pointless? Ha! I use to feel the same way in fact sometimes I still do. But if you do what I suggest and make new friends than you will feel happier. At my lunch it’s like a circus. Nobody stops laughing. It will happen to you. Even if you say your not that funny. and popular? Being popular has it flaws. You have to watch out. Some try to get you to do some bad stuff. While the cute and innocent ones are really mean. if your too shy to make friends than sometimes they come to you. But you can’t act all sluggish! Get up and smile! if you feel good about yourself it will show. try saying to yourself “I’m pretty” “I’m funny”. Even if you don’t think that…others def think that. there is always someone who has their eyes on you but you don’t notice cause you haven’t open your eyes fully. live life have fun. make friends!