Posted by Anonymous on 2020/12/11 under Life I dont know whats wrong with me, i understand that im a selfish bastard, i understand my mother is working very hard and depends on me to take care of my little sister when she is always working, and yet i just, idk it seems like a chore, i tell myself that i do it because i love my sister but no matter how much i think about it i cant fit in the love part anywhere, i have to continuesly move to stop her from hurting herself, or so she doesnt slip or so she doesnt put something in her mouth and choke, after an hour or two i start to get annoyed and be an a****** towards my mom, asking continuesly if she's done or not, sighing etc.Even before my sister was on this world i was like that, a very selfish person, a shutin, eventually got depressed for diving in too deep in a lot of philisopical topics, i always seem to want attention so i talk about these things if someone asks, even tho i never talk in general, and a lot of other things, simply put im human trash, writing here is also a way of getting attention for me, funny right? In the end ill probably just die, but what i just said doesnt have much weight because im simply too scared of pain, it iz what it iz, i tried to change and it doesnt work.