everyone spends time hurting my feelings and then acting like they care. they get mad when I dont tell them why im upset, if only they'd realize that its them. they dont care now, and I sure as hell know they won't care when im gone. they hurt me and then tell me they care when I tell them im gonna end it all, but then forget about me when I dont. but this time there is no time to see if they'll care afterwards, bc this is it. im tired of the countless attempts for them to prove my impotence in their lives.