Posted by Anonymous on 2019/04/04 under Life s*** a year ago my ex almost killed me and well almost a year later my mom just says shes a lost soul and i know that but tbh i am too. ever since then ever since i left her ive been trying to find meaning in my life trying to find something to keep me going but the heartbreak of basically the only person i cared about the fact i lost my car the court case that is stressing me out the fact ive got not a single freaking friend although i do try to talk to people the fact that because all of this im now being forced to change my plans for school of going into medicine or nursing its all so f***ing much. mentally im tired physically im tired and i feel so f***ing lost myself. i hate the fact that i still miss her and that i still have feelings. more than anything though I just hate how almost a whole year has passed by and i feel the same if not worse than before. I dont need a shrink or a pill for f***s sake i just need a f***ing break a gift something like when you win the lottery something to give me hope although i feel completely hopeless and worthless
i went to mass yesterday almost started crying but didn't cuz i mean who the f*** wants to see a 18 year old dude cry but s*** i just idk what to do im just lost as hell and I dont know what to do which is why im posting this here because what the hell i got no one else to hear me out you know i dont want to die but i dont have any reason to live if that makes sense god part of me would want to be with her right now and the other is disgusted at the taught of being near her. i just want to find a light in the darkness. thing is no matter how much i beg for one im still left wondering alone in the dark without any.
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