GOD,
I AM POWERLESS OVER THE FAMILIAR AND MY LIFE HAS BECOME UNMANAGEABLE.
2. CAME TO BELIEVE THAT A POWER GREATER THAN GREG CAN RESTORE ME TO SANITY.
-THIS IS THE CURRENT STEP I AM ON. WE ARE MOVING AS SLOWLY AS POSSIBLE SO AS TO MAKE AS MUCH LEMONADE AS POSSIBLE AND MAKE SURE WE ARE AS THOROUGH AS NECESSARITY NECESSITATES. I AM GETTING OUT OF GODS WAY WITH WILLINGNESS. I AM GRATEFUL THAT CATHY AND I WERE ABLE TO REACH THIS PHASE OF OUR PROGRAM. I CAN'T BELIEVE THAT SOMEONE ACTUALLY HEARD ME SPEAK. BUT I AM WILLING TO BELIEVE EVEN IF I CAN'T. I KNOW THIS IS A CONTRADICTION, WE, AS PROGRAMMERS, MUST LEARN HOW TO ACCEPT THIS UNCONDITIONALITY.
-WE WILL MOVE TOWARDS STEP THREE WHEN THE TIME COMES. FOR NOW, WE ARE GOING TO DO OUR BEST TO LEARN ABOUT WHAT IS AND WHAT IS THE HOW OF COMING TO BELIEVE. GOD , MAKE ME GET OUT OF GODS WAY, OR I NEVER WILL.
SILENTLY ANONYMOUS,
-THE ARCHER
wE GROW IN INDEPENDENCE
PEOPLE WHO ARE UNAVAILABLE
COMING FROM ABANDONMENT WITHIN THE HOME
THREATEN OUT INDEPENDENCE
REUNITED WITH THE INNNER CHILD
FEELING ENGULFED OR INVIVSLBE
(FLIP SIDE OF THE LAUNDRY LIST))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
TRAIT 12
INTERNAL TRAFFIC?
LOOK AT MY DAD MOER AS A CORRECTIONAL OFFICER RATHER THAN A FATHER
AS I’M BECOMING MY OWN LOVING PART, I DON’T SEE THE NEED TO REACT? LESS OF A BEHAVIORS, COPING MECHANISMS BEHAVIORS, THE MORE ABLE I AM TO DO BETTER. INTIMACY, IT SEEMS THERE ARE TIMES WHEN I AM I SEEM TO BE EMOTIONALLY ISOLATED. EVEN THOUGH I SEEM TO BE PHYSICALLY PRESENT. EMOTIONALLY I AM NOT THERE, I AM NOT EMOTIONALLY PRESENT.
THE STRANGENESS OF GOD?????????
EMOTIONAL INTOXICATION
SKIMMED OVER EMOTIONAL INTOXICATION
IT IS LIKE HOPPED. I’M IN AN ALTERED STATE
WHEN M.’S ERRATIC MOODS.
MEMORY OF DAD, IN THE BASEMENT IN THE DARK. IRRITATED OF ME. “WHAT?”
DUE TO THE BRUTALITY OF THIS ORDEAL I’VE BEEN THROUGH IN THE LAST COUPLE OF YEARS.
DIFFERENT ULTIMATUMS FROM DIFFERENT PEOPLE.
FIX STUFF IN FIVE YEARS, FIVE MONTHS.
WHOLE TRAP.
WIN HER AFFECTION BACK AFTER SHE DECIDED TO EMOTIONALLY ABANDON ME.
WHY DID I DECIDE TO ASSOCITE (DISSOCIATE? DISASSOCIATE?)
REGULAR CONFRONTATION (CONVERSATION) UNFORTUNATELY THERE WAS ALCOHOL INVOLVED))))))))))))))).
NO HARD FEELINGS.
HOW CONNECTED IT IS.
GLAD I DIDN’T GET INTO A DEEPER RELATIONSHIP WITH THIS PERSON. HEAL IN MY OWN TIME. IT’S UP TO MY HP NOBODY ELSE.
I’M NOT GOING TO DIMINISH MYSELF FOR AFFECTION.
UNNAMEABLENESS OF GOD?
SILENCES OF GOD?????????
TILDON – DID HE BULLY ME AS A LITTLE KID?
HE WAS BIG LIKE A BUDDHA.
1. DEALING WITH UNSANE FEELINGS AND INSANE REACTIONS
2. FINDING PEACE AND SERENITY
3. WORKING THE STEPS
JEW-ZUZ
JEW-SEUSS
-JEW-SUSS THE LETTER G?
JEW-ZOOOOOOOOOZZZZZZZZZ
GZEUZZ
GZUZZ
JENZ AND LOVE ADDICTS ANONYMOUS . . .
PST 6262566737
JENS 9148486001 4AM EST 4PM?
EITHER WAY ULLRICCH WILL REGRET IT.
IT REALLY HARD NOT TO BLAME OTHER PEOPLE!