Posted by Anonymous on 2018/12/09 under Love I got home from work not too long ago, excited to see my boyfriend so we could cuddle and watch a movie. I walk inside and the entire house is dark. I turn on a light and I see him in bed, all the way under the blankets with the heater and the fan on. I tried to wake him up…. When I kissed his forehead he was all sweaty, but his forehead was cold. His eyes weighed in on themselves when he tried to open them and then he fell back asleep. Upon further inspection I realized he literally hadn’t moved all day long from the bed. He tossed and turned so much he tore all the sheets off and separated/moved the memory foam mattress from the regulars mattress. It’s been an hour now and he sometimes mutters things but mostly he just keeps rolling around, and still won’t f***ing get up. I always told myself I’d never date an addict, but I fell for him before I knew what he did. The one time I go and let myself feel emotions and have a connection with someone like that, I had to f***ing choose an addict. Had to f***ing choose a heroin addict. All I wanna do is love on him and love him and be in love with him, but I’m already developing different characteristics because I have anxiety about him. I’m f***ed, guys. Idk who even reads this, this is my first one, but I’m f***ing f***ed and idk what to do. I know how to deal with it on a technical level, but emotionally? It’s like I just opened my own Pandora’s box.
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Can you look into Opiates Anonymous for him to see if there is anything interesting? It is important for the addict to find the program on his own but not many folks know about it. We are mostly only aware of AA and NA. But there is vast network of other fellowships that deal with more particular issues. I was a heroin addict. I’ve been clean for about 7 months now. All due to Opiates Anonymous, I owe my entire existence to that program, including my inevitable death.
Yeah, I could try and look into that..
I can give you the email address I use if you want to connect that way but there will never be any pressure from me. If you and the boyfriend feel okay with it. Let me knowsome. We have a 12X12 that is a companion piece with the Alocholics Anonymous Basic Text. Just me let know.