Posted by Anonymous on 2015/07/23 under Uncategorized I guess I am a big coward after all. I like you. I cherished your company and I still do. Just your presence makes me feel warm inside and melt that thick ice wall which surrounds my heart. I lose my composure in your presence, your voice call my attention whenever I hear it, your piercing eyes seem to read through me as I was transparent. And yet, I lack the courage to say it to you. I don’t have the ability to concatenate the right words in front of you, and I end up being a total fool. Frustration, then, pays a long visit and stays with me in your place. Coward. Hiding behind his own work and keeping himself busy to an unbearable extent, solely not to lose control in front of you and perhaps scare you away. Simply because your presence is what I cherish the most. Just because I am not enough for you. Just because you deserve better. I am exhausted, both physically due to the urge to work and pretend it fills the hole within me; and mentally, for not allowing you to know all of it. For not being able to allow you to enter my life, if you desire to do so. Coward, bastard, cold-hearted.
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Dont say things like that.John Lennon once said: love will find a way. I myself have a same problem: girl who i like is awsome,i enjoy her presence,talking with her etc. but dont have the balls to tell her that. If love didnt find a way until now,maybe it will later,but dont lose hope my friend. Now is the time to take a break from her,and try finding things and activities that will make you happy.You need to start loving yourself again.