Posted by Anonymous on 2013/03/19 under Uncategorized I have no one that I can talk to about this current issue. It is a huge secret. I just have to get it off my chest right now. I have a boyfriend that I have been with for a while. He doesn’t always treat me how I would like to be treated. He brings me down a lot of the time. Why am I still with him you ask? I just have nowhere else to go right now. I won’t go into detail about that right now though. We sit next to each other, and still I feel like I am alone most of the time. Well he has a friend that he goes to college with. They ride together everyday and hang out sometimes here at our apartment too. One night we were all hanging out and drinking. My boyfriend went to bed and his friend was staying the night since he couldn’t drive home. We spent hours talking and listening to music together. We had a whole lot in common. Next thing I know, he was coming onto me. We started kissing and one thing led to another and we ended up having sex. He wasn’t drunk and he knew exactly what he was doing and so did I. It was really amazing. He kept telling me how beautiful I am, which I never hear anymore. He whispered so many things into my ear that just made it so romantic. We haven’t been alone together again enough to talk about what happened. I wrote him a letter and gave it to him to tell him how I felt, but I still haven’t heard his side of things since we haven’t seen each other much since it happened. It is seriously driving me crazy not knowing how he feels. In a way, I feel kind of used. I don’t regret it for any reason other than it has been on my mind so much. I just want to be able to talk to him. That’s all. I’m sick of thinking about it!