Posted by Anonymous on 2013/03/09 under Uncategorized I don’t know why I feel like this. Sometimes it just hurts. I cry myself to sleep every night because I won’t desperately to make something of my life. Since falling in love with you I’ve been the happiest yet in someways saddest I’ve ever been. My emotions finally unlocked and now hard to control. I hate that we don’t see each other in the day, I feel in someways like I’m the last on your list of things to do, that hurts the most. When I think of things I fancy doing I always imagine doing them with you and yet it seems you would rather to anything else than be with me doing something your not necessarily into. I love you more than anything. You’re my first love and will forever be in my heart I just wish you would desire me more. want to spend time with me doing things not just come to mine and sleep after I’ve looked forward to seeing you all day. Its odd sometimes its perfect and then the mood will change and it feels all wrong. I don’t like feeling that I’ve forced you into spending time with me I just want to be with you and experience things together. For you the idea of spending a whole day together is a nightmare but I would love to go out in the daytime like a normal/real couple. I feel redundant as a girlfriend sometimes, im so eager to please that you know I’ll always be here when you need me and so you have no need to win me over. I love you so much. fight for me.