I don’t know how to deal with the disappointment of failing,
my mum told me yesterday I was a big disappointment and embarasment to her,but she doesn’t know how disappointed I really am already,add up everyone else’s disappointment it doesn’t even compare, and to be told that is a huge blow on me.I’m really trying to pick things up and move forward,it’s slow because I don’t know what I want to do and I want to make sure I do and not fail again.But it doesn’t mean I haven’t been doing nothing at all.
It hurts the way she assumed I didn’t try at all,I never told her because coming back home every break was supposed to be a positive thing. I try to tell her things but she never wants to understand.Back at uni I was told I had depression from doctors they prescribed me medicine,I tried to tell her she laughed it off.
I don’t want to be here anymore
Failure is beautiful. It is a normal thing and it is proof that you are human being and if people don’t accept that… screw them. This is your life. We learn from failures ok? Just be happy every single day and things will get better. .xx