LIFE
life……life can be sad, happy depressed or even suicidal. as right now idk what im feeling more like confusion scared that i will be failure in life. i feel alone even though i have a family that loves me. i cant seem to find my way out this depression.the more i think i about it [..more..]
12 months of hell
1. My boyfriend killed himself, 2.my brother stole 300 quid off me 1800 quid off my nanny, my cousins 21st money, 2 cameras, took his girlfriends mothers bank card and took load of her money, yet I’m the one who had to move out, 3. Bro hit my nephew so family are in bits, 4. [..more..]
Depressed
Even at those, ”fine”, nonsense years of, partying and doing whatever the craziness that was drilled in your brain to belive you should do, I never even once, remember saying; ”I am perfectly, fully, satisfied with my life at this moment.” Okay, well, who would, but, not even a; ”I LOVE MY LIFE.” I just [..more..]
Where can you find real friends?
Every year of my life I never came across with a real friend. A real friend that eill be there with you until the end. Before I thought my best friend will stick with you until the end. Well she backstabbed me when we graduated from grade school. Now that I;m in high school… it’s [..more..]
busy days
work load has really gone above my head. i am frustrated with all these busy days. i am longing for a vacation. god knows when i would get it…
happy birthday dad
today is my dad’s birthday. oh god please bless him with good health, and a long life. love u dad….
miss u friend
i am very unhappy that i had to lose a friend of my schooldays after our send off. i never met him after the online admission day. i dont know where he is now. but i miss him a lot. he was my best. though we are not in contact now, i would love to [..more..]
It was ME
I feel so angry, sad, frustrated and stupid not because of what others did/say but I know that all this happened and I let the opportunity slip away because of me. I know that it is my fault so I can;t blame anyone and only myself. I know I can’t keep procrastinating but it is [..more..]
Coming Out
I just came out to my sister, she was the first person I told, it happened only about 2 minutes ago. I burst into tears. I know in movies, the say they can hear there heart pumping, but this was the first time I actually felt it. I could actually hear my heart pumping. I [..more..]
Sometimes, I just want to die.
Sometimes, I hate myself. Then, my family and society and magazine and other girl and other boys and people I’ve never met. Sadly, I am the only one to blame. It is my fault I allowed myself to be unhappy. My fault I binge. My fault I can’t be a normal person. My fault I [..more..]