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It really amazes me the person I have so far turned out to be. When I was really young I seen myself being everything I learned about. When I was in high school I seen myself with a good career possibly in the art industry. I would be happily married with a family. When I [..more..]
Black Floors
I wake up in the morning and I walk into the bathroom and look at myself in the mirror, but the person I see staring back at me isn’t there. It isn’t me. I feel so trapped, like I’m on one the outside looking in watching myself try to live. I feel sometimes that the [..more..]
I want to write my thoughts – Does everyone think this way? Would someone want to know mine?
Today was full of excitement and adventure- nothing too spectacular but worth visiting- I realized tonight that I’m not the only one that thinks the way I do- I wonder one day if my children will be anything like me- Do I want children?-I’d like to be able to go anywhere I want- but I’d [..more..]
22-01-12(10:12:51)
Everyday I’m hurting myself and my relationship. Constant thoughts that play in my head. Constant accusations I throw at him… NOT GOOD ENOUGH. NOT PRETTY ENOUGH. TOO FAT. NOT SMART ENOUGH. THE SEX ISN’T GOOD OR OFTEN ENOUGH. BREASTS NOT BIG ENOUGH. FACE NOT PRETTY ENOUGH. He constantly has to find ways to feel better [..more..]