Vulnerability = Impossibility

There is a restlessness here. Deep inside me. I long to be something, someone, yet I cannot open my self enough to let that happen. I cannot lower myself to such a vulnerable state that would allow people to see who I am. They only see who I want them to see, and yet, sometimes [..more..]

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I feel f***ing lost. Like a kid in a playground trying to fit in with everyone else even after knowing how much of a douche bag the other kids are. Idk wtf to write to be honest but f*** it right. One thing im done with though is religion. How the f*** does religion even [..more..]

I miss you

As sit here in tears, battling my fears. A never ending fight, Since you’ve bin gone nothing feels right. i try stay strong, but never had a fight last this long. Trying to ignore it, like everything eles i store it. nothing feels the same, bag after bag, bottle after bottle, still the pain, remains.. [..more..]

05-02-12(20:11:10)

I Dont have depression but somehow i always hated my life and i wanted to end it all. I just want a place to escape my horrible life.I hate it so much. I feel like im trapped in a big black box where there’s no way out. Sometimes I feel like im in a big [..more..]

19-12-11(23:44:54)

okay.all ia m trying to do is see what my little sister is doing,but she goes john wayne and starts pinching the f***ing s*** out of my f***ing arm.i swear,she only knows how to be a f***ing d*** face.heres the thing,my f***ing parents dont do a god damn thing about the situation.they just sit back,relax,and [..more..]

I can’t tell anyone. I can’t be myself. This smile is not me. I’m bitter, I’m angry and I’m f***ing hurting, every minute of every day. How will I ever get through college? What did I think I was doing when I enrolled? I’m nothing but a sex object and a punching bag, for guys [..more..]