Life struggles
I was diagnosed with lupus about 6 years ago. Treatment for me compromises my immune system. Sunlight and stress makes me flare up. Some days I feel really blah and no one understands and probably thinking im making a big deal. I get chest pains when im stressed and sometimes scares me because im thinking [..more..]
What even…
What am I, anyway? Straight, bisexual, asexual? It’s so confusing, this human sexuality thing.
my happy place?
Playing volleyball makes me happy. I wish i was with team members who like to play bc they wanna have fun, bc thats what I wanna do when I play. I dont need to be the best, and I really wish people weren’t so competitive. Just live, smile relax. Twice this b**** makes me look [..more..]
I’m so tired of being tired.
I’m so tired of being tired. After a life spent well traveled I crash landed into adulthood with the grace. I need write twenty more word because the f***ing goal I’ve set myself is 500 words a day. As if writing 500 words a day like a robot will make you a better writer. You [..more..]
i miss
right now i am missing the times when life was carefree. now look at my life. i suffer fom heart ache everyday from the one whos suppose to be with me. and i cant go a day without crying. ive always known that my parents relationship was bad but now its going overboard. my mom [..more..]
Naruto
Sigh, naruto has ended after 15 years. Definitely one of the greatest animes ever!!
Thoughts?
I don’t want to feel this way anymore.. I’m overly jealous and overly possessive… And I hate it.. I wasn’t like this before.. But in the past I’ve been cheated on and the result?! This. My mind goes places it doesn’t need to.. Think of scenarios that doesn’t exist… I’m tired of being this way.. [..more..]
Forever wasn’t the answer anyway
I choose to die now than to die later. We already know that one day I’ll die and I’ll die in a ruthless way. He doesn’t know anything. No one can save me than my own self. You already know that too. Now I’m writing here hoping you would see this as you hack and [..more..]
I miss the times…
I miss the times when I didn’t care.. I miss the times when nothing mattered.. I miss the times when everything’s cool.. I miss the times when everything’s fine.. I miss the times when I trust someone, cause all I do now is doubt someone.. I miss the times when my head is clear, because [..more..]
I Don’t Know
I don’t expect you to care. I don’t expect you to even read this. I don’t expect anything from you, nothing, nada, zero. That’s life. You can’t expect anything from anyone no matter who they are. Life will throw you the best it’s got and you gotta think how will I take this? What can [..more..]