Posted by Anonymous on 2015/05/04 under Uncategorized Being in the hospital sucks have I mentioned this bc it does. Still passing blood I’ve gotten 3 units of blood that’s scary! I Resend what I said earlier I’m happy I came home at least inknow the hospital im in pros and cons being it means people know me . I’m scared what they are going to find in the morning. Pluses is that I may not have famiky here but I’ve had friends stay with me on and off al day including my new friend. They are so sweet I feel it’s almost unfair they are here but I’m liking them more and more I wish I felt up to dating but I can’t right now. If something happens to me if I don’t write anymore idk what to say I miss you I love you I hate you I wish tings coulda been different. Idk so many emotions I’ve been having I had no idea I was in this bad shape I mean I felt bad for over a month but I just attributed it to being depressed. I was told by doctor that I coulda died from blood loss if I didn’t come in so thanks friends no doubt as they called ems when I passed out. I’m happy I’m sober and proud of myself for that!!! I’m proud of the person I am and I hope I can be even better person!! I struggle with wanting to tell my family but with one member sick and the other still Mia I fee it’s best to not. I’ve filled out a power of attorney form and a living will tonight as I was instructed to do its just surreal how fast things change. I have written letters tonigt just in case . Tomorow will tell so many things pray for me please.