Posted by Anonymous on 2015/03/02 under Uncategorized My childhood was awesome, but everything afterwards is just a mess. I’ve been through severe bullying, sexual harassment (coming from my own grandmother, nonetheless), a near-death experience (caused by septicaemia), toxic friendships, one emotionally abusive “relationship” (it wasn’t official – another reason for my suffering) and right when I started coming to terms with my past and being abgle to forgive my aforementioned grandmother, she died, leaving me feeling guilty for how over-the-top I was a few years ago, when I had my revenge for her inappropriate behavior.
I am not good enough at anything. I space out in class and teachers snap at me because of it. I haven’t had a relationship in two years, and all my relationships failed to give me any emotional satisfaction. I am always afraid that my friends hate me. I am ugly, and when I bathe I feel that my body looks like that of a fat seal. My parents divorced 10 years ago, so I only live with my mom, who is very stressed by her job. I can’t afford to open up too often to her because she has her own problems.
I am almost sixteen. The last time I was happy was when I was nine or ten. Now I feel trapped in my own distorted train of thought.