Posted by Anonymous on 2015/03/02 under Uncategorized im going insane. i cant do anything. im constantly in fear. i havent laughed from my heart since since…i dont know. the only thing that keeps me alive is when i can feel null, watching tv or listening to music or reading. if i start thinking, i know all i want to do is die. it’s so tiring to act as a member of society. yet, i try. i cant stop myself from hoping and trying to act normal. i want to finish my homework assignment. but i cant. i dont want to. i am a paradox. or a hypocrite. i want to die. i want to die. but i have too much damn hope. f***. f***. f***.
I know the feeling. And I know it’s cliche but it does get better. I was in your position two years ago, but I just pushed forward and after I graduated high school, it was like a whole new world. I honestly think you should see someone about this though. Maybe go on anti depressants? Keep doing the things that make you feel better, but also look for other outlets like friends. Surround yourself in comforts. I don’t know what exactly is making you feel this way, but it helps to talk and let it out. Keep soldiering on.