Posted by Anonymous on 2014/11/12 under Uncategorized Everything seems to be falling apart. I’m still a while person but I feel like I’m splitting just so that I might be able to take the pain. Like I’m disassociating but still have all the thoughts and memories of the other half. The only thing that changes is the personality and perspective. It’s so difficult to explain but even as I’m writting this, I’ve flowed from one mentality to another so fluidly; its like conjoined twins writting together but having different perspectives. *sigh* I feel used, and lied to…and alone.
Ah. Another person who is suffering from the same thing as I.
Whoever you are,well, I don’t really have any advice but I can at least tell you you’re not alone. I’m also struggling with this…’two people’ thing. The old me is dead, but I still have her memories and thoughts. Now I’ve changed, become stronger (or weaker, I suppose. Depending on your personal philosophy on being weak and strong) and it feels so strange. I like the new me much better though-at least I think I do-but can’t seem to shake off my past self, so I’m stuck in a depersonalized state…
I wonder, do you also feel like you don’t know who you truly are anymore?
They say finding out who you are is the main purpose in life;nothing else will make you feel as accomplished.
But that’s a little difficult for people like us though.
The best thing I can say is that you have the freedom to become who you want, so pick the perspective you like best, and stick with it.
Feeling the same exact way.. don’t know where it artist from.. having a hard time separating reality from dreams.. memories are trippy.