Posted by Anonymous on 2014/11/09 under Uncategorized I need to use this to get my feelings out I can’t tell anyone in person I freak out if I try . I pretend that everything is OK but jut under the surface its terrible. I’m fat and unable to even lose a few pounds. I haven’t been genuinely happy in over 6 years since before my brother died. I often try to think of things I could do but when I do my mind reminds me that when ever I try anything I fail. I’ve never been in a “relationship” I can’t figure out how to. People keep talking me I should go to college but I know I’m not smart enough for it. And im scared that the few friends I have will learn this and I will be as alone as I feel. I’m a virgin and the way my life is going I’ll probly never lose it. I often find when my mind drifts into my actual thoughts I become incredibly depressed and barely keep myself from suicide. Just a little bit ago I had my knife pressed onto my neck but couldn’t make myself push it in. Im a failure at everything I do, aboslutly everything I don’t know if I’ll be able to keep myself away from death by my hand. I can’t afford those dating sites and Im too awkward and shy for “normal” dating I would know the first thing about it. I’m sorry if you really all of this. It’s just the feelings of a loser virgin and I tires of people saying theres nothing wrong with that it feels like im missing so much life that Ill be dead before I achieve anything thanks if you read all of this I’m sorry
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believe me when i say being a virgin isn’t bad at all. when that right guy comes around, which he will, that man will be so happy that you haven’t been touched. to a guy that is sacred. my girlfriend was a virgin and i waited a year and a half before i made love to her and i felt like the luckiest guy. and she was 31 at the time and there is nothing wrong with that. you need to keep your head up. maybe try something different. i go to church once a week and it brings out the spiritual and soulful person that god knows i am. he’s always right there with you, you just haven’t noticed him yet.
This is written by a guy I think
Life is all about perspective. What exactly aren’t you achieving? Under whose standards are you a failure? I know these words will mean nothing, and you will not experience an epiphany of any sorts-but keep this in mind and you’ll be alright.