Posted by Anonymous on 2014/10/02 under Uncategorized I am not too sure how to emotionally handle this thing. I think I love this man. But I know I should not. So I’ve determined to ignore my feelings and maintain a professionally appropriate distance. When I see him, I both want to get closer and move away. The conflicts in my mind are not doing me any good. It’s been more than 3 years. But recently we are working more together. I find it harder to maintain my emotional sanity. On the surface, things are still normal. No alarm and no surprises. Yesterday I even determined to forget him. Unfortunately, I dreamed of him. It’s quite ridiculous that while your logic tells you to stop, your emotions just carry on. I thought I’ve come to terms with a conclusion. But it looks like maybe I have not. I can’t tell anyone about this. I don’t want to tell anyone. I am relieved he is going on a long trip now. I can take a break from this emotional battle. I need to put a stop to this silly thing. And hope that it will not get worse when he comes back.