it’s probably 2am here, i’m still awake thinking wether you are still alive or not, wether you’re alright, wether you’re home with your family, maybe you could be asleep, or even onligne as me! idk what you’re doing in your life, wether you moved on or not, wether you still remember me, and our days back then. i still dream about you more often and you always tend to leave, once i open up my eyes and realize that it was just a dream, i really wish to see you again one day, i do miss what i’ve been through with you, i pray for you to be okay. i cry because i didn’t want to lose you, i didn’t want to go far away, it wasn’t up to me back then, and if i can just turn back time 6 years i’d have you back by my side,it’s true that i’ve been through relashionships after you but it always needed something , there was something missing, that love between us wasn’t there, i couldn’t love after you, i couldn’t love as much as i loved you, i only kept on hurting my self and the ones who loved me! even though i’m not writing for you to read but.. anyways.
I have the same dreams. I still have the same feelings, but I had to let go of a dream that was not true, just something I idealized for over a decade. My family, my wife, my daughter, they are real. I really miss her some days where my heart hurts so much. I have had anger, depression and longing. She knows where I am, she knew I loved her. I do wish I had a time machine sometimes just to feel and see the good times.
i’m sorry for what happened for you :/