Posted by Anonymous on 2014/05/13 under Uncategorized So i am thinking about smoking weed again. I have been having mood swings again and i am still on my paxil but it is not working. I have been so mad lately for no reason really. I know weed is self medicating but i also know that it also almost ruined my life. I was going to put this on my facebook but i didnt want anyone to read it cause i have family on facebook. I really just want to smoke weed one more time. But i am afraid that if i do i am going to start wanting it everyday all day again. I don’t know what to do. I am just so stressed recently i really just need something to ease my mind, I know that marijuana is prolly not the answer but i just feel like i want to smoke. I know i prolly shouldn’t. I just am so stressed lately. I don’t want to smoke though because i know there are some people in my life that would get mad at me. But to just be able to relax for a little while and not have to be so stressed out and so worried about everything would almost be worth it. I don’t know if i am going to or not. Nd another thing i do not know who i would get high with or where i would get the weed from just because i havn’t done it for so long. I guess i could see if carl would be around the way. I would ask someone at work who i think smokes but then i would be all worried about wether or they would judge me or tell my boss. I am not sure what i am going to do right now. I am feeling really lost.