Posted by Anonymous on 2013/11/21 under Uncategorized So I’m a generally private person. My friends don’t know hardly anything about me, and yet I always tell them, “you’re my best friend ever” or “I love you”, when I really don’t care (as a human being yes, but as a friend, not really). It’s like a I want to feel emotional pain. And when I cry, I wonder why I don’t have friends. The obvious answer is I push them away. I WANT to. Maybe it’s because I’m too embarrassed to trust them with certain choices that I’ve made, but people give away secrets all the time (and they’re somehow still kept private), and yet I feel like the world will fall apart at the mere mention that I’ve never really been honest with ANYONE in my life. I’m a liar… and socially awkward. I get nervous just talking to my parents, but I still love them, and I’d do anything for them. But I don’t feel like I have ties to anyone else (nor want them?). This just leaves me confused and is it weird to feel like this?