Posted by Anonymous on 2013/04/14 under Uncategorized About 6 months ago I moved from the Maldives (near India and Sri Lanka) to the uk. I now have very depressing nights and often cry myself to sleep 🙁 I just cried for a while until I came across this.. Anyway I was listening to “The One That Got Away” by Katy perry, and all of a sudden burst out in shuddering sobs D: I really miss my dad, who was divorced from my mom when I was 2-3 I’m not sure. Recently my dad called and announced my step mother was pregnant, and I was excited. But then I remembered how religious my dad is (we are a muslim family) and began thinking about how if the baby was a girl she would be a much better daughter to him than me, wearing hijab at a young age, doing all her prayers ALL the time (I have trouble with this, and have asked my mom to remind me about prayers after having these thoughts) etc. Also I have trouble fitting in at school, I have two close friends except (friend 1) told me (friend 2) told her (friend 2) found me annoying, and that she thinks I’m trying to steal (friend 1) away from (2). I have a messed up life but I try to think positive. I also find my step father (married to my mom 1 year 3 months now) annoying and I’m a little jealous of all the attention he gets from my mom, and when they’re all huggy kissy around me I get upset.I even heard them once “””wrestling””” and sometimes the sounds and thoughts come back to me even though I try to forget it. I heard them go “”Oaaaoohhhhh…”” together, EEEEUGH. Well that’s all. Bye. I feel much better after writing this, thanks so much. Byeeee