Posted by Anonymous on 2013/03/30 under Uncategorized Its not fair.
Its not fair how much I truly cared. How I would have done anything for her. Did everything I could possibly do to try to make her happy. I know im not perfect. But I tried. For 3 months I was truly happy. Not that fake happy I always showed. I wasent alone. I really felt we had something. Myabe that’s cause I never had a real relationship before lol I really felt she loved me. She would never do anything like the other girls in my past have done. She cheated. She held hands with this guy. She kissed him. She likes him. Shes still talking to him. Shes hanging out with Kayla. Shes talking to Kayla. Kaylas always going to be around. Where does that leave me? She doesn’t even answer my texts half the time anyway. Nobody cares. Nobody wants to listen to this. Everyone will say move on move on. Sucks im such a emotional, sensitive guy. I like her so much and I hate myself for it. I wish I didn’t. I wish I could just stop caring. And the funny thing is I still care. I STILL care. Who knows what shes doing. She could kissed Kayla today. She coulda hooked up with a guy. She could be hanging out with troy. Shes not asking me to hang out. Shes being mean to me. She hates me. I text her first everyday. I complament her everyday. She takes anywhere from 10 min to 5 hours to respond back with a one word resoponce. And I wanna go back out? How will that ever happen? She wants to be friends? How will that ever happen? She cares about all these other people more then me. Did she forget I was there for 3 months. Did all her feelings towards me just go away. Does she like me anymore, are there ANY feelings left? Ha I asked her if she misses me the other day she says sometimes. Again being mean to me. Maybe shes just telling the truth. Maybe she changed. Or better yet maybe shes not the girl I thought she was. I felt she felt so much more. I felt nothing can stop us. Look where we are now. Her friends hate me. Im lonely. I take walks all day cause I have no life. And wanna hear the best part. I tell her something I haven’t told anybody else in my entire life, something about me. Something very personal. She doesn’t even care. She shrugged it off and acted like her problems are more serious. Screw my problems. Cause im not as depreeed as she is. How depressed can she relly be? When shes talking to everyone fine, hanging out with her “friend” meanwhile it’s a girl whos in love with her still. Maybe shes in love with her too. This sucks. Life sucks right now. Ive cried and cried, tearing up as I write this right now. Shes sleeping right now I bet. Maybe not maybe shes texting Kayla. She didn’t respond to my last text. Why do I care so much? How do I stop? Ive never been this hurt. Ever. I did everything I possibly can. I tried everything. Still trying. Is it worth it? Is she worth it? I don’t think so. But apart of me wants her back soo bad. Is it because shes beautiful? Is it because I hate being alone? Im not sure. I wish she would open her eyes. I wish things could go right for me for once. Just one time. Its not fair.
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this is sooo not fair body, how could she ever leave the only guy who loved her truly? 3 mounths is a long periode, i say that after all what you have shared togather she could never leave you, but instead she did; i don’t believe she loved you honestly she was playing with your feelings, she is fake maybe, maybe you were just blind & u didn’t see the real her! but i don’t think that going back togather could be good solution for you i know you love her & u can’t live without her but trust me i had the same experionce honestly,, i fell in love with a guy but he didn’t precheat me, he left me brocken to peaces i swear, would you believe me if i said that i tried to kill my self twice but my friends & family didn’t let me too! but after a long thinking, i relized that he is the one who has lost a girl like me & he would never find any girl that can love him the way i did, & i believe that someday as this girl treated you she will get her part too she will fall in love truly & she’ll get hurt then she’ll relize that she has lost her perfect man trust me!