Posted by Anonymous on 2018/12/09 under Kids God, I just discovered Media Anonymous and the buddy wrote us back. How grateful are we? Thiss part is going to particularly be trying, as we are heavily addicted and invested to technologically bound TV shows. I was absstinent for a long while. But I am codependently very driven to attend to M. when she needs anything, as she seems not to have anyone but unreliables. She absolutely loves TV and so I learn to love what she happens to love. Which is TV, chocolate, cheese (I was able to cut out the M.E.T.E. though, so that is cool and progressive.) Some parts of this sscenario might have to be accepatated. I don't know how I am going to get off TV if it is allways on? I am not strong enough to turn the TV off when she goes away. It is too scary being alone. Her desparation and despair becomes MY desparation and despair. How can I go on? I understand, first of all, how powerless I am over media, technology and violence. And I am willing to take steps two and three, obviously I have done it in the 10,000 other programs I am a part of. But I don't know if THE FAMILIAR is willing to support me in my journey inward. They don't seem to like me very much these days? I hope that God can guide these processes inward towards the Kingdom of Christ and that all might be revealed in doses that are articulatable and digestable to an addict like Me. Please help God understand that he is not to blame and he is never allone (I mean that optimistically and gently. Sometimes we need the virgins solitude and so being allone is a burden and sometimes a sstrength, it is defining the moderation that is the hard part of it all). I cannot do this without the Kingdom of Christ and his Jesus Dad and I am praying, with enough willingness, enough powerlessness and enough emptiness, we can fill the God shaped hole in our bodies with the holy spirit of God. Please help me realize the cloud of unknowing I was called to and allow me to give my myself the best reward of all, as often as possible, which happens to be rest. I am willing to move towards the fourth step when the time comes. And I am also ready to get out of Gods way to let God do what God needs to do. Please forgive me for being an addict of God (an addict of Satan? Addicted to Satan?) I didn't cause my addiction, I can't cure my addiction, and I can't control my addiction. But with Gods help, I can become willing enough to believe that there is in fact a way out of this disease, disorder, and disorganized house of the devil. Please lead me into the forest of unknowing, where my heart might be.) Silently Anonymous, -The Archer