Posted by DubYuDubYu2 on 2013/11/04 under Friends I first met you in High School, when my family first moved here. You were one of my first friends in such a new, strange, alien environment to me. You came from the same place as me but many years before I did. In a matter of a few years, you and I became so close to each other. You became my best friend. People would see us together and assume that we were flirting or even dating. No matter how much we told them we weren’t and said that’s just how we were, they wouldn’t believe us. I’ve had a long distance girlfriend since we met and you had a few partners over the years. Despite our relationships, we were always seen hanging around one another. When High School had ended, I went back to where I had come from to go college and attempt to remove the long distance aspect of my 3 year relationship permanently. I missed you and the times we spent together terribly. I had believed that our friendship was at its end. But my trip had hit financial trouble and I returned. Now here we are again. We’re going to the same college and though we don’t see each other as often as we did in High School, we’re always enthusiastic and make the most out of the days we do. We’ve become even closer than before; Comfortable with what we do around one another, openly talking about the things that interest us, and even doing things beyond what “normal” guy/girl best friends would do. We’ve gone beyond best friends, progressively letting one another deeper into each other’s personal lives. We’ve even spoke about living together and keeping one another company for the rest of our lives if neither of us could find love. It feels as though we’re in a relationship but without the commitment to one another nor doing all the intimate things a couple would do. I’ve begun to realize, we’ve grown to love each other’s company. We cherish our friendship above all others and I feel that our bond has become inseparable. As the semester comes to a close, I can’t help but feel my heart sinking. After all, I know there is a time limit to how long I can see you. I will eventually have to leave the community college we’re in together because they don’t offer all the courses I need. One day I may have to move away again.. permanently. I am dreading that day.. I don’t want to lose you.. I don’t want our friendship to end.. I’ve realized that I’ve come to love you and that I’m too fond of our relationship to give it up. I feel like that day is drawing near. I can’t help but think about it every time I wake up. No matter what may happen, I want us to promise each other that we’ll always be the closest of friends wherever we may end up. I’ll be there for you as much as I possibly can. And I know I shouldn’t say this, but I somewhat hope that one day we will live together like we talked about. The best possible situation for me though is if you ended up as my neighbor. I’d come to see you every day and whenever I could. You’re so much closer than a friend and I couldn’t possibly ask for more. I hope we’ll be standing side by side together, forever. On the day I leave overseas again, and possibly never to return, I’d like to ask to see you again, just one last time. See me off and give me one last hug, but don’t say goodbye. Goodbye is the last thing I want to hear from you.
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this message almost put me to tears. I think it’s about time you come out of the dark and express your feelings. Who knows, she might surprise you.