Posted by Anonymous on 2013/04/01 under Friends Oh, yes sure, you claim to consider me your best friend, but I do not and I cannot think the same of you. I have the impression (perhaps I am wrong) that friends are supposed to be there for each other in crappy times, but all you try to do is f***ing one-up me, and usually with a completely bogus lie about something that’s hurt me and you probably shouldn’t lie about! I am poor as hell and I have been homeless TWICE and you say you can ‘relate’ and one-up me. I’ve watched my granddad have a heart attack before my own eyes and you have the gall to say YOU’VE had one before, that it’s ‘NO BIG DEAL’ and try to prove me wrong when I say ‘You haven’t, that’s impossible’. You’re 17, for god’s sake! You lie about s*** all the time and pretend to like things for appearance, and then mock people who do the same. I have literally never seen you listen to The Cure, you know f***-all about cars and have no idea what alloys are, you have never had to sell your car or anything beCAUSE YOU HAVE ALWAYS HAD MONEY! And then when I get pissed off, you make it about you AGAIN! ‘Oh, I can feel my best friend slipping away’ ‘Everybody hates me’ ‘I think I’ll just drink vodka and find my drugs (she’s never taken drugs)’. Another thing: you even lie about having a mental illness. When I nearly killed myself last year after abuse from my brother and legitimate clinical depression and anxiety personality disorder, you had the audacity to pretend you were mentally ill and your condition was worse than mine, even that time I actually showed you my scars and you said ‘That’s not bad – I’ve had much worse’ and then you actually SCRATCH yourself to compare the next time you invite me over. YOU MAKE ME SO F***ING ANGRY, AND I ACTUALLY THINK YOU WERE PART OF THE PROBLEM LAST YEAR. I LOST FRIENDS THROUGH GIVING YOU THE BENEFIT OF THE DOUBT, AND YOU WERE A S***TY FRIEND IN RETURN. Well, I’m f***ing done with it. I know you know I’m pulling away. I’m glad as hell we didn’t go to the same college. Now please, please stop clinging to me. I need to breathe and I desperately need to not have this sort of negativity near me, lest I relapse again. I just want her to leave me alone. (Oh, and also HELL NO, I AM NOT MOVING IN WITH YOU WHEN WE GO TO UNIVERSITY. I DO NOT NEED TO LOOK AFTER AN INCOMPETENT, SELF-CENTERED B**** WHEN I’M TRYING TO START MY NEW LIFE.)
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Drop the friendship. I’m not even sure if you could call it friendship though…
I’ve been through depression and suicidal thoughts, but when somebody goes up to me and tells me about their own depression, I never EVER say “Mine was worse than yours.” I just say “I can relate to you” because I want them to know that they don’t have to feel so alone…but I would never say that their problems were less than mine.
For the sake of yourself, you could either tell her to GROW UP herself, or leave her be and hope that she realizes or somebody else tells her. You seem like a very nice person, and I would love to be a true friend to you (if you ever need one). I am sorry that you went through so much s***, and I pray that you can cope and go through it one day 🙂 I’ll be here to support you.
I wish you all the best.