Posted by Anonymous on 2013/02/23 under Friends Im 18. I’m a European, I dwell in a country that many Americans claim they have relations in. My country is often seen solely as the place where leprechauns and pints of Guinness can be found.
Ok so if you can’t guess where it is I’m writing from then honestly you’ve lived under a rock! 😉
Kinda like me, I live under a rock. I haven’t been invited anywhere by anyone in a year.I haven’t had a healthy friendship since I was 12. That friendship has since disintegrated however, like all the rest. My problem is that I am the worlds best icebreaker, I make friends so so easily, it’s just when I am comfortable with someone I back off. I don’t want to be a hindrance or a weight on someone’s shoulders. Two years ago I moved schools to try and make new friends because I didn’t fit in with the people in my old school. I moved, made new friends, they left me and just toolkit in my stride and made new friends. Right now they’re dropping me – they want nothing to do with me. They exclude me at lunch and whisper in my presence and I just ignore it. I’m never invited to meet up with them outside school. I want to move again. But this time to a special school here in Ireland where nobody knows eachother. I am preparing for my leaving certificate. The big exam before I leave school. Being alone and lonely is taking its toll on me. I have no relationship left with my mother and my school work has studied. This special school is a grinds school, so basically it covers all my courses in one year, there would be about 1000 other students in the same boat as me. I’d have such a big opportunity to start new, to make friends and to keep them. I don’t know how to bring this up with my mom, it’s expensive and would mean I’d have to live with my aunt for a year. I want to, so bad.