Posted by Anonymous on 2012/11/16 under Uncategorized I hate her more than I can even describe. She’s innocent, she’s a good person, she claims to have her darker moments but she never shows it in public (which is smart of her because those are something you keep private til you have someone you trust), she’s getting better at art, there are a s***-ton of people who adore it or her personality, and I’m just here like…like I used to BE her in our group of friends. I know they’re not replacing me, and I know there’re probably people in the group who like me for me and don’t compare me…but f*** man…It’s just this biting, blinding jealousy and hatred for this girl building up in me and it’s making me sick to my stomach. I hate myself for it because I know she doesn’t deserve this amount of hatred. I know I need to be the bigger man and tell myself to grow up.There are so many things that I know are wrong, but I just keep letting this feeling take over and ruin my good times. The only thing I can pat myself on the back for is that I haven’t shown animosity towards her in public, nor have I tried to be a b**** behind her back. Is it because of these that I’m feeling so mad? But I don’t want to be a b****, I don’t want to ruin anything with the friends I have. I just wish I could punch myself or her and just get over this f***ing awful feeling. I don’t want to be this way, I don’t want to start drama, and I definitely don’t want to lose my self-respect… After typing all this I’m just feeling sad and tired…I want to crawl somewhere and not wake up or at least not get up.