Posted by Anonymous on 2015/07/11 under Uncategorized Well, how do I start? I’m 18, I live in California, and Iy all began when I fell in love with her in the freshmen year. She’s beautiful, her smile, laugh, eyes, personality, just an all around perfect person in my eyes. We’ll call her Emily. We dated and eventually she became my girlfriend, things were going fine! Dates every weekend, I’d bring her little gifts just to see her smile, and she’d do the same for me. Of course eventually things became bumpy, we fought and worse came to worse and I commited what is probably one of my biggest regrets… I began talking to another girl. I took the girl that I once treated as my queen for granted and with that ignorant mindset I strayed from her. I ended up telling her and in spite of my wrong doing she still loved me. Things happened, my mom passed, school started to become an unbarable load, and getting high, drinking and partying became a priority. My father decided it was better for me to live with my sister in Chicago because he thought I needed to be around a family environment. I told my girlfriend and we decided it was best fquiero comer su culoor us to break up, so we did. I fly out to Chicago with the thought that I would be living there, I was able to talk my way out of it after 3 months of staying there. I came back to California and went back to my same school just to see the most heart breaking thing ever. My queen, the love of my life, my sunshine had another boyfriend. My heart literally hurt everyday after I saw the two of them holding hands, kiss, laugh, everything that we did. I began to talk to other girls, and met somebody, let’s call her Arianna. So Arianna and I got together and I managed to hold our dysfunction, sorry excuse of a relationship for 11 months. I finally let her go after she cheated on me…. For the 3rd time. One week after Arianna and I get broken up Emily called me out of the blue. Her and her boyfriend has broken up and she wanted to just check up on me and talk because she was comfortable with me. Well we hung out and things were perfect, we went to the beach, went to the mall, and went to eat. Then 3 weeks later she sent me a text, “no more terms of endearment, we can’t do this we are just friends.” Just remembering the moment I read that text makes my heart sink. So now we’re just friends… But I’m still in love… My heart hurts every night. Im not expecting help, I just needed somewhere to pour my heart out.