If suicide is supposed to be a temporary feeling WHY THE F*** am I still suicidal. I’m not suicidal every minute of the day but I am suicidal for at least a minute of every day (usually a lot longer) EVERYONE ALWAYS SAYS THE FEELINGS WILL PASS BUT THEY DONT. ITS A LIE. ITS A F***ING WORTHLESS S***TY LIE TO TRY AND MAKE US FEEL BETTER WHEN ALL THAT WOULD MAKE ME FEEL BETTER RIGHT NOW IS F***ING DYING
I JUST WANT TO DIE
I HATE MYSELF. MY LIFE. NO ONE CARES. F*** THIS.
Those who say the feeling will pass do not even consider to face suicidal thoughts, and I sincerely wish they will never come across such thoughts.
These feelings are extremely persistent, to the point of becoming convincing. They eventually make us ignore all the little good things about life.
Finding this way back is a challenge, but, as someone who recovered from strong suicidal thoughts and severe depression, I say it is worth.
Remember yourself of all the little things that made you smile before, and do not resent the fact you can no longer notice them. Acknowledgement is the first step.
I hope you can find your way back, and remember that there is always someone who cares, even when we cannot see it by ourselves.
Z.