Posted by Anonymous on 2015/05/28 under Uncategorized So painful. Life is not too good these days. The only ray of sunshine is from a caring colleague. But right now, it’s as though life is full of problems I can’t solve. I feel very overwhelmed. Words fail me because I’m simply too tired. My mind isn’t working the normal way it should. I’m worried and in constant state of fear. How can I get rid of them and function normally….? I need some strength to carry on. I see something good, but it always seems like the bad is more than the good, and it’s quickly ruining every small bit of happiness. I am not likeable, I know. Because I always think at the level of details. Then I spot the problems. But I don’t have the solution. I know people hate listening to problems, so I’m in a dilemma of whether to point out the problem. I don’t want to appear negative. But I can’t let the problem slip without being addressed. Maybe I’m not clever enough. But hey, why am I blaming myself for everything? Sometimes others are ill-intentioned or they play nasty political games or simply misuse their power. Why am I blaming myself for their mistakes? Or am I actually developing an inferiority complex… I don’t know. I’m confused, tired and fed up. I don’t know for how long I can carry on.