Posted by Kgurl1177 on 2015/05/04 under Uncategorized I was so depressed the past 3 weeks. I had no motivation to do anything. All I did was sit in bed, watching TV shows online. I was mad at myself for constantly harming people emotionally, I kept telling myself that I hate myself and how stupid I was. I’m actually still not over that. I still keep on telling myself that I hate myself and that I’m stupid; but the good news is that I was at my moms relatives place this weekend. We had so much fun and I hung out with my distant cousins. We didn’t really grow up together but we visited each other a lot when we were kids. I met this one guy, he is funny and nice and everything good (except that he’s 20 and I’m 16 xP; that doesn’t matter too much though). The only damned thing that is wrong with all of this whole situation is that he lives 2 and a half hours away from me. I wish I could get to know him better. He seems great.
So we talked on Facebook and got to know each other a little bit. I really like him; we have something in common that really excites me (I won’t mention what though). So anyway, yeah, we talked about stuff and he just really motivated me to go jogging again and doing stuff and working out.
This may seem weird to you but you have no idea how hard that has been for me, to have motivation to do anything, to live. Now, it feels like there’s hope for me. I feel like I can get up in the morning and GET GOING!
This “thing”, these feelings, they’re really new to me because I’m not usually into guys more than 2 years older than I. What I tell myself, though, is that if it’s meant to be, then it’s going to be.