Posted by Anonymous on 2015/04/15 under Uncategorized Have you ever just had a realization that you really liked someone? As if that wasn’t bad enough, it’s over someone you have the smallest possible chance with. It seems like my life but so far it hasn’t been that big of a deal because it was over someone famous. Well , the past few months have been different because I’ve taken a liking to a guy who I have a class with. As if that wasn’t bad enough, it’s on a senior. Alas, I’m a sophomore. Life can be cruel sometimes. I mean just even the smallest thought of him will give me butterflies in my stomach and I won’t be able to get him out for awhile. A part of me wants some romance to pop up but I wouldn’t mind just being closer friends. I’ve only known him since the beginning of the school year but guess what? The school year will be ending in a few weeks. I’m internally crying as the says pass. I mean I’ve even sat down and legitimately cried a few days ago over this matter. I don’t want to say goodbye. I know he’ll be going to college only a few minutes away from here but I still son’t want him to go. And then there’s the part of me that tells me I’m just attached. Way too attached. I mean we’re friends but we only ever really talk at school. I have his number but I haven’t found the courage to actually text him and just talk. Instead, I wait until I see him in class where we just sit with our group and just hang out as we complain over our teacher. It’s fun. He’s hilarious and he likes to tease. While this may be a bit annoying to some, I find it endearing and I love it. He’s also smart so I can actually hold a conversation with him. He likes the same things I do but we don’t agree on everything so we may argue but I like it. I like that we’re like that. I like the fact that he has a good taste in music. I like the fact that he dresses really well for a guy. I like the fact that he’s taller than me. I like how he gives me hugs whenever I’m feeling down. I like how he doesn’t conform to social norms where we are. And I’m angry at myself for falling for him. He does these little things that probably don’t mean much, but to me, they’ve stuck onto the back of my mind for the past few months. He’s mentioned that I would be a great mom. He’s mentioned us marrying a couple of times. He’s called me cute in a manner that I can’t describe but it makes me melt. He says I’m as radiant as the sun. I MEAN HOW MANY HIGH SCHOOL GUYS DO THAT?!?! My mind is a mess.