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Posted by on 2015/04/15 under Uncategorized

I am 17, with a 5 month old sweet baby boy. I love him more than anything and i would do it all over again. Im also engaged to a wonderful man. Before i had my son, i was so in love with my fiance. Now i dont feel anything. I feel like im going through the motions. I am still in high school, ill be graduating next month i also work part time. So im not really home to do my “wifely/ duties. Im also a straight forward, blunt, honest, and bossy person. I can also get aggressive, however ive tamed that somewhat. Through all that, i have lost hope. My life feels like its on repeat. I do the same things over and over again. I hardly sleep because i breastfeed my son and im the only onr who can get up with him. I am so stressed because of everything that im not producing as much as i should. I have to secretly supplement because i feel like im failing as a mom. I hate the way i look. I dont like to look in mirrors. I wanna give up on everything so bad. And i would if it wasnt so my sweet baby. Ive lost hope in my future, in my love life, in my ability to be a mom and go to school and work and keep up with breastfeeding. Im begging to hate my life. I resent it. My fiance doesnt bring me the happiness he used to. Half the time i wouldnt come home home if it wasnt for my baby. I try to do things with him to bring it back but it always seems to fail. I cant talk to him about it cuz all he asks is what can he do… and ive exhausted everything i thought would work so obviously i cant tell him. Weve lost the littlw things in life. Weve lost our passion. Its a boring life now. Ive given up hope of being happy. Please someone help…

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