Posted by Anonymous on 2015/04/15 under Uncategorized There’s this one guy. And, yeah, I do fancy him. Its not like I’m over-the-top in love. I just…have a crush on him and yeah, I do hate it. His name is Matt. But before him, there was this other guy. His name is James. We knew each other for 3 long years. Grade 4, 5, 6. We were “enemies.” That’s what we said. But we laughed, and we teased, and we argued…we did it all, we had it all. Because, even though I didn’t realize until he left the school, we had love. We had a special bond. It was friendship. He was always in my class, every year, even though I wished he wouldn’t be, every year. In grade 7, I finally got that. I thought he would come in October, like he did in grade 5. Only he didn’t. And I missed him. That year was…hard. I saw him at this community centre, but we never talked, never acknowledged one another. I tried to but…I failed. Once, there were fireworks, and I was so close, but then I had to go. Anyway, that year I liked liked him. And I hated it. I hated that I missed him. But I did. And now I’m in grade 8. I like Matt, one of my closest friends like him (they don’t know I do), and I’m over James. Well, I told myself I was. I recently found him on Instagram. I tried to tell myself that I hated him, don’t follow him. But there was an enemy post that my friend, Sam, posted and I had to write a comment and tag him. He replied. With one of our inside jokes. But he hasn’t replied to my reply to his reply. And I keep going on it, hoping. I want to talk face-to-face. Will he? And Matt. He’s the complete opposite of me. Goodie-goodie, perfect on everything, sporty (I am sporty too). And my friend, Rachel, likes him. A lot. She’s telling me things about him and she “hates” it when people tease her. I don’t mind, but I don’t know. I’m so confused. My best friend is busy, my other friend has changed, my other friends aren’t the type to talk about this, Rachel likes him. And I can’t bring myself to say anything to them. Only my best friend but she’s busy, never home! I really want James’ friendship back.