I think reality is better than fiction. All people want to do is escape. We watch anime, tv, movies to escape reality for a little while, or at least I do. At one point I thought that they was no difference between the two, reality and fiction. I can’t go outside, I can’t be around people. I just can’t do it. I have no friends, literally, and I can’t make any or at least I feel I can’t. I’m a nobody. Who would ever love a nobody? I don’t want sympathy, It’s not like I told anyone this or have anyone to tell. I don’t know when this thought got totally off track, but I don’t really care at this point. I want reality. It feels like I don’t have anyone or anything holding me here and one day I’ll just disappear. So I guess…I’ll post all my self-pity here. Screw it.