Posted by Anonymous on 2014/09/27 under Uncategorized Finally my craving for coffee is getting its way out. I had to make a full mug of coffee and I feel good after getting some sips inside me. Black coffee without sugar as always. Day is getting really boring, and having two days as a holiday and not knowing what to do can be both blessing and a curse. I am feeling confused right now and this issue has been bothering me again from the last night. I had read somewhere that all the emotional pain cannot last longer than 10 – 20 minutes, its people who make it complicated by over thinking it. Agrrr I don’t know really. What I feel is that most of the pain comes to us because we are not willing to let it go. We are too stubborn knowing about the things and still holding n too it. That’s what I think. Recently I have been through lots of emotional ups and downs and what I realized and learned about my self is that I have tendency to get overly attached to things and peoples. I may not like them but I still tend to get more attached and I don’t know how to get rid of this. Ok let’s talk about it I don’t like anything about the person if I try to remember not even a single thing. But still I want the person to give me attention which I am not getting obviously and it’s still bothering me and I don’t know why when I don’t eve n like the person. May be I miss my boyfriend so much and what I am craving is him deep inside and maybe I am trying to find the same affection from others that he used to give it to me may be I just miss those hugs and kisses. I have been listening to wide awake of katy perry thinking that it will get me out of this it has helped me somewhat but still I need to do something more about it so it does not come hunting me back again . so I thought I would right something and may be it will make me feel good and I am still not feeling good, I am angry with myself inside and I know it and I am trying to find solace in others what a fool I am . And the worst thing is that I still want to buy one f***ing t-shirt for the person. I need a way out. I need to pull this through I love my boyfriend and I need to focus there.
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One thing you have to know not everyone you meet is meant to be close to you for a long duration of time. You should know your limits by the way they interact with you as well. Knowing how they feel about you is just as important as how you feel about them. I’m not sure what it is that makes you get so attached to other people, but i’m just guessing it is because you feel lonely or you don’t know who you are quite yet. Yes, you have a boyfriend, but he isn’t your a scapegoat as well. His job is to be a supporter and provide you comfort, but only to a certain extent. You have to be strong yourself and find a solution towards this issue immediately, because sooner or later, you will affect those around you.
Have a good one. (: