I thought I could handle this at first. I though that maybe I was just being a stupid teenager and that I would soon get over these feelings.
But lately, waking up every day is so difficult, and seeing a future in anything is useless. Everything is useless, for I am worthless.
I want to die every day. I can’t sleep, and even when I do, I don’t want to wake up again. I’m so upset all the time, and I can’t do this alone anymore.
But why don’t I just tell you? Because I could already see you standing there with tears streaming down your face saying, “I’ve failed as a mother.”
Don’t you understand that those are the words yah make me feel this way? You have more important things to worry about, mother. I just can’t deal with this anymore. It’s so stupid that I feel this way, but I do.
I want to die. I need help. I am going to find a way to tell you soon, but I hope you know that your response dictates the rest of my life.
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