Posted by Anonymous on 2014/02/12 under Uncategorized I wanted to die. 5 months ago I was feeling like absolute crap, my relationship had ended, but before that I had sunk into physical and mental depression I didn’t Know why. I had a good job, great family, and a great partner . and I also felt like I wanted to chuck myself under the next car that crossed my path. its been hard , ive cried , ive got angry, ive gone to bed at night blaming others and blaming myself for my own misery god it ached so much, my ribs killed i couldn’t confront my own thoughts yet I couldn’t stop thinking. I just want to type this oput ive just come on the internet because I feel like im giving myself confirmation. im self medicating. its been a long time coming. we can all regress, but living is a process. i see that now. fingers crossed . im going to read a book now.
today I have woken up and for the first time I feel free. I had a day off work, made a cup of tea and for once was utterly content to be in my own company, not only that but didn’t once feel like the depression would creep up on me when I least expected it (as it so often cruelly does) I honestly cant belive it. im not fully there but I swear I cant believe it for once I can see the light in the distance and the light feels attainable.. why am I writing this on here? because I can. i felt like id never feel like this ever again and now im here.
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this gives me hope
Make your ribs hurt from laughing. It’s the exact same helpless feeling but instead of crying your laughing. Sometimes over nothing. But it’s chemically good for you. Spiritually too. I love this. You’ve seen yourself today. <3
aw this is good, because I have felt the same many times throughout my life too. its good to know other people are the same as me man.
yeah we get knocked down but were built to be survivers