Posted by Anonymous on 2013/07/16 under Uncategorized I loved you Gabriel. I honestly did. No matter how mean or moody I get, I will always love you. What happened to you? You used to be so faithful and committed to me. You loved going anywhere with me. We used to text all day. We used to have those karaoke nights during the summer where we sang songs to each other at 4 am every Thursday. We had our first kiss on my birthday, in the classroom. My parents know you. Your parents know me. Our moms are almost best friends. What happened to you? I know I’ve gotten a bit possessive, and I’m sorry for that. I honestly couldn’t feel comfortable with you being so touchy with other girls. I’m sorry. I got mad because you got so jealous whenever a guy says hi to me or just tells me I look nice. Now, you barely look at me. Whenever I smile at you, you shoot glares at me, followed by a scowl. Whenever I offer you something, you shove me away. Why? I know you loved me. I felt it. It made me the happiest girl ever. But now, it’s gone. The feeling is numb. I may be b****y when I get really mad, I may be moody when I’m on my period, I may be over possessive whenever you get too touchy with other girls, but that doesn’t mean I don’t love you. I love you Gabriel. But why did this happen to us? Maybe because we were too young. Maybe we went too fast. Even if we try to be the best friends we were before this relationship, it’s just not the same. You’re just being really insensitive. When people got annoyed at you, I never left you. When your friends left you, I never left you. Whenever you had problems, I never left you. Whenever we did have problems and I stayed quiet and left for a few minutes, nothing happened. I’m still the bad person. You know I’m suicidal. I know you can have some urges as well. That’s why we always stuck with each other no matter what. But why Gabriel? Why? Why did you leave me all of the sudden? Without such a goodbye? I know we are no more. Our relationship is gone. Those 2 year old messages I kept for our future. They’re gone. That imaginary family we imagined we would have in the future. They’re also gone. I’d never use those names in the future ever again. I know I shouldn’t cry. I’ve accepted everything already, but it just hurts. You know why? It’s because I loved you. I loved you no matter what. I really thought you were the one. I know you don’t care anymore. That’s how you could act so normal and happy even after all of this. I honestly don’t believe you whenever you tell me you still want us, because your actions say otherwise. I’m just so sad. I’m just so hurt. I hope that one day, we’ll be able to smile at each other sincerely again. I’m sorry. I’m sorry for everything. I’m sorry for getting mad. I’m sorry for getting jealous. I’m sorry for being too shallow at times. I’m sorry if I can get clingy. I’m sorry for being insensitive at times. I’m sorry for hurting you. I’m sorry Gabriel. I love you.