Posted by Anonymous on 2013/07/15 under Uncategorized Dear World,
WHY do you do this to me! I am sick and tired of not being good enough. Every time I try to connect with someone there is ALWAYS someone better. I like them and I get the impression that they like me back, but when I take a second look, I realize that there is someone else. Will I ever be good enough for someone or will there always be someone better. Someone smarter, prettier, funnier, more outgoing. I feel like the most boring and common person on this planet. But this is who I am. Honestly I try to take the whole be yourself as seriously as possible. I try to be who I am all the time. This approach has gotten me close friends and closer to my family, but it seems to not be good enough to attract men.
You may think I am over reacting but this ALWAYS happens. Honestly I have had 3 guys in the past year that I like and they have all told me that they liked me, but at the end of the day there was someone else.
Trust me I believe that if it isn’t meant to be that you shouldn’t push it and if they are meant to be with that other person so be it. I even are friends with them after and counsel them because I am a good friend. I want nothing more than for everyone to be happy and find their one and only.. but When will the world turn around and smile on me?
If the day never comes I am not sure how well I could live alone, but I know I have been through worse and I could indeed over come it.
Thanks for listening
M